it's just too much

not able to pull all nighters like i used to do. sigh. too tired to think, let alone move. if i see another box tonight, i think i'll start to cry. but the office is looking pretty good. south desk is better organized. stack of magazines is gone, as is the spare table. can actually pull the PC out from under the desk without having to move anything out of the way.

good enough for the installer. #2 son is in charge of getting the loft cleared. he says he's got it under control. going to have to trust him, i haven't enough energy to argue about it. going to go take another nap (about 4 hrs. this time) and see what else i can do in the morning. nothing major, until the installation is completed, but there's still a lot i want to do this week while the hubby is out of the way.

it's time to order a dumpster. and i think i'll call the used books store (i think they'll actually come get these). sometimes, you just have to be really ruthless. i said that before, didn't i? "things" are just not going to control the way i live. if i can't give it away, or throw it away, i'm far too attached to the wrong things. should be able to walk away without looking back.

mostly, i think i'm capable of that. the things are nice, or pretty - some of them have sentimental qualities...but they're just things, after all. what really counts is my family and our health. the rest of it is just trimming. it's a bonus we don't have to have. so cleaning up all this clutter is just a way of clarifying the best ideals for us. and it feels like i've accomplished an incredible amount of that in the past couple days.